Blabbing,...

Hey readers,

I am still working on my family history series blog, until I post than, meanwhile I'm going to continue to post.

The past few days, it’s been hard, breaking bad habits it is not easy and I feel like I keep falling towards my comfort zone, being lazy and going back to find life without purpose but I know better and I understand that I need to get back control and check in with myself to find out why am I feeling, not as content with myself.

I been feeling sad because the job opportunity that was offered to be, the manager let me go after the 3rd day, not because I did anything wrong simply they found someone else to do the hours they wanted, which is fair enough but that left me with no job and there is no point in getting one now as I will be leaving to Switzerland on the 29th of December. I guess I felt like I disappointed myself but I know that is not true.

I am happy taking care of my niece, but I never thought that would be my job in Portugal as I wanted to try something different and where I was earning money. Not that I need the money, it is just a help because that way I would save up more.

Besides all of that, I miss my friends, house and my church back in England. I don't regret the time I am spending it here, I love it but I guess I expected more.

I know things will be different soon as I start travelling to another place. I just need to be patient with myself.

I've been feeling a bit overwhelm, over thinking things but one goal I will set myself is to go out more, more walks and it is more of a challenge than a goal, because it is cold outside.

I just want to live this life to the fullest and not sit around waiting for a something or someone to swop in and save me. The most important person in my life is me and I am the only one that can make me happy :).

I am sorry this blog is a bit down, I just wanted to write, get it off my system, because I don't want to give up on blogging because of me being overwhelm and lazy. I am committed to myself.

Have a wonderful day guys and let me know if you ever felt like that in the comments below and what you did to get your motivation back ;)